I am finally free. I have finally finished the Leaving Cert, and while this should be one of the most exciting times of my life, a part of me is feeling a little bit lost. A part of me is worried about the future, and a part of me is wishing that my only worries were what was going to come up on an exam paper, but I guess that's the small price you pay for freedom, and for growing up. I am stepping into the unknown, and quite frankly I am scared
I am scared that this next part of my life might not be as predictable as the last.. But isn't that what life is all about? The future is so scarily beautiful. I have yet to figure out what I want to do with my life, or at least try to before the CAO change of mind deadline, and I wish that someone, or anyone, could tell me what to do, but this time I must make the decision on my own. This freedom is so scarily beautiful
Perhaps what is most exciting about this newfound freedom is that it is not like anything I have ever experienced before. It's not the same as your average "I'm on Summer holidays" kind of freedom. It's more of an "I could live there.. or I could live here" kind of freedom. I have so many decisions to make, and yet it seems as though I have so little time to make them. By September many of us will be wrapped, sealed and shipped off to a new temporary home. This concept is so exciting that it scares me
But I must rise and accept the challenges that face me, for that is the small price I must pay for this newfound freedom,
Loved this post! You're so lucky you're finished already, I still have music next week ðŸ˜. If it makes you feel any better you are definitely not alone, the whole not knowing what I'll be doing in September is terrifying. But as you said it's scarily beautiful, just take each day as it comes and it won't feel as overwhelming. We're all in this together,
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It's great to know I'm not alone on this one! Best of luck with the rest of your exams, I'm sure you'll do great!
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